holy moly, idk even know where to begin. If youre returning member here thank you for reading this. If youre new here thank you for stopping by hope you enjoy your stay here. Well summer happened and i didnt do much. i was suppose to do this art show thing with a friend and didnt work out how we wanted. but we still have a oppertunity to do something great this summer at TCC Gig Harbor Campus Gallery. i think we are moving in a slightly differnt direction or maybe with more of a subtheme. idk im just happy to be working.
i did have this super awesome job, that was i really happy about, but things happened. i lost a very near and dear friend, things just havent been the same and they never will be. a lost boy know a mothers love. it feels like i have a mental break down multiply times a week. im really sick of exsistance. im sick of america. the internet. food. emotions. family. the news. social media. i damn near started crying while walking around costco today. its so much people. i dont have money, i dont know what to buy, i dont know where things are at. everything about shopping there give me anxiety. i went there to get some cheap lunch, and top ramon, but i got my instant noodles and left. I didnt want to try and navigate trying to get food alone. i tried to use my old chest freezer and i had a bunch of meat go bad, and i idk. . . .everyday is a new adventure. I locked my keys in truck this morning . . .so i ended up taking my other car to the autoparts store to get a lockout kit. that was $90. im down $300, half a elk, a good friend, high paying job . . . closing to losing it all again, and some how today im not falling into the suicidal ideation. if you feeling like hurting yourself please call the national help hotline.
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i really dont know what to say.
i had some weird dating experiences and maybe ill write about them next
i been staying in bed a lot
i only been eating once a day
but its been pho the last two days
i got the house clean
even the dishes
with all the time off work i been clean, and i been spending money like i was going to go back
then i realized i dont want to
and now im starting back at zero
Mary Fox is the greatest conolinzer to ever live and im going to miss her very much
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